almost died once

i will tell you over time you are not at all alone
in the experience of my life this is just the way it goes
when you are someone who loves hard and openly
and cant avoid a friend in need
the devil doesn't forget to punish a good deed
i almost died once too
i have internal scars like you

the things that cant be explained by falls from bikes
or climbing trees
the ones that no one sees
and people who know this are so few...
but i almost died once too

darkness settled, dim TV light eminated all around
the music, pink floyd's 'dark side' droned on
he didnt mean what he did i would say to this day
but he was the one who pushed me that way
and as my head hit the floor and my neck racked
i felt him push down on my back
i was dreadfully waiting for the snap
waiting in that split second for my neck to crack
i thought i would die that night
you'd think that would have been the end right

we all make mistakes, we often repeat them
as he held me that night in his brother's bed
and on the radio played they might be giants 'flood'
and he repeatedly told me how sorry he was
and he kissed me like he meant it
and it felt like he owned me
and with his arms around me
it was just like home to me
i knew it was wrong still i let him touch me
my body back then didn't mean much to me
so, i almost died once too
and i know it wasn't the same as you

and we have so much learning to do
why do i feel compelled to share with you
now it's one more thing that you will know
one more place where we may not be alone
i need nothing but me
and you need nothing but you
because i and me and you
are you
almost died once too